Shattered

Listening to one of my favorite songs by O.A.R. while I was in the car this evening. The song is titled "Shattered" and one particular line caught my attention - "How many times can I break till I shatter?" This pretty much sums up where I am right now. I am broken, but not shattered. I just don't know if one more hit will shatter me though. Hard to explain as it isn't one particular thing, but I feel a lot of who I am and what I think has been my purpose has been broken. I know God can pick those up and use them as he see fits. I get that, but the process is still tough. The thing that scares me the most is the damage it can do to those around me. I feel because of the way I have dealt with this time of shaping that I have several relationships to repair. Hopefully those aren't shattered. Feel like God has stepped into those areas that I was using to substitute for him and said I want you, all of you. My focus needs to move away from me - the I want, I need, I...blah, blah, blah...I am sick of me. I want to refocus on God and loving others. Not sure what He wants to create with the broken pieces, but I am sure that it will be better than what I was creating.